I'm so excited to have Marketa Grayson on the latest episode of The Birthing Room! She’s sharing her powerful testimony about how she transformed her life and found true freedom through deliverance. You don’t want to miss this inspiring story of healing and breakthrough!
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[00:01:06] So you want to share with your, I can give you a second if you want to share on Facebook, Marketa.
[00:01:13] You want to, oh, you got to mess with your phone? Okay, then share later because I don't want you, I don't want to lose you.
[00:01:19] Okay, all right. So we're going to really get into it. So I have a special guest here today.
[00:01:23] Is it Minister Marketa, Sister Marketa? I want to make sure I get it correct.
[00:01:27] Sister Marketa.
[00:01:29] Sister Marketa, okay. Let me make sure I got my volume up.
[00:01:38] Okay, there we go. Got my volume up so I can hear you clearly.
[00:01:41] So we have Sister Marketa today. And let me tell you, I've been watching her and I just realized that I kind of, I know her mom.
[00:01:47] I didn't realize that I knew, you know, some family, but I have been watching you.
[00:01:52] And I think about a couple of, maybe last year, beginning of the year, I think, I don't know, we became friends or I just started seeing you on social media.
[00:02:01] And it was so radical. And I remember when the Lord, when he pulled me up and told me it was time for me to work.
[00:02:09] I see myself. The first thing God told me to do was cover up.
[00:02:15] And no one could understand it. No one could understand the transformation.
[00:02:19] Why do you got to cover your head? That's what the Lord said.
[00:02:21] That's what God said, do you know, I became a cover Christian.
[00:02:24] And I remember, you know, just happened to adjust to the people around me.
[00:02:28] And I hear you always talk about that.
[00:02:30] So I said, you know, she's just so bold.
[00:02:32] You were just so bold and so radical.
[00:02:34] And I just saw the light of God on you and you being just a transformation to your generation, being a voice, a strong voice.
[00:02:43] And I don't know how old you are.
[00:02:45] I'm 37.
[00:02:46] Okay, so you're a young girl.
[00:02:48] I said, these young girls are bold and radical.
[00:02:50] And I was actually 37 when I said yes.
[00:02:53] When I gave my initial yes, I was 37.
[00:02:55] I know I don't look it, but I'm 46.
[00:03:00] So, yeah, I was excited.
[00:03:02] I was excited and blessed me.
[00:03:05] And then I heard your music and I began to really hear about the music and I read your posts and they are always radical.
[00:03:12] You're always, you know, stand on business, as they say, right?
[00:03:15] And everyone doesn't always appreciate that.
[00:03:18] But everyone can't be real when they're standing in their truth.
[00:03:21] And I love that you said, listen, this is who I was.
[00:03:24] And this is how God brought me out.
[00:03:26] And I want to tell my story.
[00:03:27] And I want somebody else to be blessed.
[00:03:28] You have never, ever, you know, held anything back.
[00:03:33] So I want you to share with everyone else that I already know.
[00:03:36] I'm going to go ahead and just open it up so you can introduce yourself.
[00:03:38] And let's talk about you.
[00:03:41] My name is Marquita Grayson.
[00:03:44] I really don't know where to start.
[00:03:46] It's really a lot.
[00:03:49] Well, let's start here.
[00:03:50] I want to start with your transformation.
[00:03:52] Let's talk about you because I know you said that your ministry is all about transformation.
[00:03:56] Tell us how God transformed you.
[00:03:58] Okay.
[00:03:59] So it really started like, I think it all really started when I was like maybe 17 or 18 years old.
[00:04:07] Okay.
[00:04:07] So when I was about 17 or 18 year old, I always grew up in a church.
[00:04:11] Like that was the thing.
[00:04:13] My mom was a minister my whole entire life.
[00:04:15] She was an evangelist.
[00:04:16] So I think around like 17 or 18, I went to prison.
[00:04:22] Yeah, it was like a couple of weeks after my 18th birthday.
[00:04:24] I had went to prison and I went to prison.
[00:04:29] And when I was there, I got, that's where I really, really got involved in a homosexual lifestyle.
[00:04:35] It was something that I always struggled with growing up, but I wasn't like, bam, this me.
[00:04:41] I wasn't out there with it.
[00:04:43] But in prison, like what a lot of people don't like to talk about, the homosexual activity is very, it's crazy in prison.
[00:04:51] So I found it easier to kind of like be myself in there.
[00:04:56] So I came out, you know, the whole saying I'm gay thing.
[00:05:00] I cut off all my hair.
[00:05:02] I had pretty long hair all the way down my back.
[00:05:04] I cut off all my hair.
[00:05:05] And I started dealing with women.
[00:05:08] I was dealing with women.
[00:05:09] I was selling drugs.
[00:05:11] I was sipping promethazine with codeine.
[00:05:14] I was carrying guns.
[00:05:15] I was running around with the boys, telling grown men what to do.
[00:05:19] I had grown men working for me.
[00:05:20] Like I really was like heavy in the streets, like deep in the streets.
[00:05:24] And that went on in my life for like maybe 19 years.
[00:05:30] And it wasn't until a point where I had found myself very, very depressed because I had just got out of an abusive relationship where my partner had stabbed me three times with a butcher knife.
[00:05:46] A lot of my friends were getting life in prison.
[00:05:48] A lot of my friends were getting killed.
[00:05:51] I was fighting the case at the time I was supposed to get seven years for.
[00:05:55] I was out on bail for that.
[00:05:56] So it was a lot of stuff going on in my life.
[00:05:58] And I was like really, really depressed.
[00:06:00] Like I had money, but it didn't fill the void that I was trying to feel.
[00:06:06] So I was running around just like sleeping with a whole bunch of girls.
[00:06:12] I was doing like four or five girls a day, like nasty, just out there, just wild, not caring.
[00:06:18] And just drinking every day, sipping promethazine every day.
[00:06:22] I started going to the casino every night.
[00:06:24] I started clubbing every night.
[00:06:26] I started taking vacations.
[00:06:27] Like I was doing so much to try to get through this pain that I was feeling.
[00:06:32] Nothing was working.
[00:06:34] So I started like reaching out to my mother and stuff.
[00:06:37] And she would tell me to like just talk to God.
[00:06:40] So that's where my journey like really started.
[00:06:42] The transformation really started in 2015.
[00:06:45] It started in the inside.
[00:06:47] So I just, I started off with just a prayer life with God.
[00:06:52] Like I would just pray that I started off with just a prayer life.
[00:06:55] And then I started going to church.
[00:06:58] And then I think I was going to church for probably maybe like two or three years.
[00:07:02] And then I gave my life to Christ.
[00:07:04] So let's stop for a second.
[00:07:05] I want you to go back to that.
[00:07:06] I want you to go back to how you say your transformation started from a prayer life.
[00:07:11] Because I always say whatever you do on the foundation of prayer is what is going to last and set you free.
[00:07:18] So let's talk about that, about how you begin your prayer life.
[00:07:22] Some people say they can't pray.
[00:07:24] You know, I don't know how to pray.
[00:07:25] I don't know what to pray.
[00:07:27] Well, I always tell people it's not all that holier than art thou that you hear people do in church.
[00:07:33] When you hear them people that can pray, pray, pray, pray to heaven's down.
[00:07:37] You don't have to pray like that.
[00:07:38] I started off just having a conversation with God.
[00:07:41] Just waking up, telling him how I was feeling.
[00:07:43] Telling about my frustration.
[00:07:45] Telling him where I was hurting.
[00:07:46] Telling what I was thinking.
[00:07:48] Just asking him different questions.
[00:07:49] It was just a conversation like how you and I are having a conversation.
[00:07:53] Yes, yes.
[00:07:54] So I just started just having conversations with him.
[00:07:57] And it would never be like about my sin.
[00:07:59] It was just about how I felt about my life.
[00:08:03] And he really cared.
[00:08:05] Like he really, really, really listened to me.
[00:08:09] Yeah.
[00:08:09] So I think maybe for it might have been six years, three years I was praying.
[00:08:16] Then I got saved three years later.
[00:08:18] Then it was three years after that where I added fasting to I had started fasting and praying.
[00:08:26] I would never read the Bible.
[00:08:27] It was too boring for me.
[00:08:28] I didn't understand it.
[00:08:29] It was it was something that I just didn't find time to do.
[00:08:33] So it started off with praying and fasting.
[00:08:36] And then I think in I started changing in the inside first.
[00:08:40] And then in 2021, I started dressing more feminine and stuff like that.
[00:08:45] So to a lot of people, the transformation has just started, but they don't understand.
[00:08:49] It started in 2016.
[00:08:50] A process.
[00:08:51] Yes.
[00:08:52] The process that you had to go through.
[00:08:54] So you start with your prayer life, having a consistent prayer life, having a consistent
[00:08:59] altar of prayer.
[00:09:00] I'm going to speak to everyone that's listening.
[00:09:02] This is how the process works.
[00:09:03] So she started off with building an altar before the Lord and having a place where she
[00:09:09] communicated and she met with God to build that covenant in that relationship.
[00:09:14] And then she said, then as she was being transformed on the inside, she began to fast.
[00:09:20] Now fasting with prayer, we know begins to break down our strongholds and break down the
[00:09:24] walls.
[00:09:25] So we watching the process.
[00:09:27] Okay.
[00:09:27] I'm with you.
[00:09:28] I feel you.
[00:09:29] So we have prayer, we have fasting.
[00:09:32] Yeah.
[00:09:34] So then I, that's when I started to get into the word because, but I was forced to get
[00:09:39] into the word.
[00:09:40] Cause like I said, it was boring.
[00:09:41] I didn't like it.
[00:09:42] I was forced to get into the word because I couldn't fight in my mind.
[00:09:46] Come on.
[00:09:47] Fight those negative thoughts in my mind.
[00:09:49] I was getting beat down because even though I was going through the transformation, I
[00:09:53] came out, I was delivered from so much.
[00:09:55] I couldn't fight in my mind.
[00:09:57] I couldn't fight them negative thoughts.
[00:09:59] I didn't, I was moving based off of my feelings.
[00:10:02] And when we're not applying the words to our life, we're going to move based off our feelings
[00:10:07] every single day with every single thing.
[00:10:09] We have to know what the word of God says, um, who we are and who he is.
[00:10:14] So we find out who he is by reading his word.
[00:10:18] Come on.
[00:10:19] Say it again.
[00:10:20] So I was forced to start reading because I needed, I needed to fight.
[00:10:25] And I, it was no way for me to fight those negative thoughts or to not just move off of
[00:10:32] my feelings.
[00:10:32] So I needed the word.
[00:10:34] So I started to read the word.
[00:10:35] This is such a prophetic moment because even the way you're giving it, you probably even
[00:10:40] realize you're teaching someone how to get free.
[00:10:43] You start off with praying.
[00:10:44] I got to build an altar, build a relationship.
[00:10:46] And now I'm going to add some fasting in so I can tear down these strongholds to get
[00:10:50] myself together.
[00:10:51] Now I know it's a battle in my mind.
[00:10:53] So I have to stand on the word of God because hearing the word of God, it builds my faith.
[00:11:00] Faith comes by hearing and hearing the word of the Lord.
[00:11:03] And now I can build my faith in God and I can understand who he is.
[00:11:07] So I can give him back his promises so I can stand strong to do what God has called me
[00:11:11] to do.
[00:11:11] She helped us some of us.
[00:11:13] Okay.
[00:11:14] I got excited.
[00:11:15] I feel, but I feel the anointing on you.
[00:11:18] You just, okay, go ahead.
[00:11:22] So that's basically where I'm at now.
[00:11:24] So like, and it was a struggle.
[00:11:26] Like I will go to my mom, like, mom, I cannot read this word.
[00:11:29] And she was like, listen, she was like, you fast and pray like it's nothing.
[00:11:32] She was like, everybody has one weak area when it comes to fasting, praying and reading
[00:11:36] word.
[00:11:37] Everybody's weak in one area.
[00:11:39] It's very rare that somebody has all three like down pat.
[00:11:43] You know what I'm saying?
[00:11:45] Especially first being first coming in newly saved.
[00:11:48] Cause I can fast is nothing.
[00:11:50] When the church going to fast, I don't even go on to fast with them.
[00:11:53] It's not a challenge for me.
[00:11:55] I have to go on a real serious, like crazy fast.
[00:11:59] Like I have to fast for 30 days and go through a whole day where I eat before the sun come
[00:12:05] up and then eat when the sun go down.
[00:12:07] But it'd be something like, like I got to go through real hard.
[00:12:10] My fast gotta be long.
[00:12:11] I can't do a three day fast.
[00:12:13] I'm gonna laugh at that.
[00:12:13] It has to be a long, crazy fast.
[00:12:16] It has to be like fruit and vegetables for eight weeks, fruit vegetables and water for
[00:12:20] eight weeks, but only do it when the sun is down.
[00:12:22] I have to do stuff like that.
[00:12:24] So as you were going through this process and this transformation, when did you feel that
[00:12:29] you were totally free and healed and delivered?
[00:12:33] Healing, healing and deliver.
[00:12:36] First of all, deliverance happens in layers.
[00:12:38] Yes, it does.
[00:12:39] Stuff falls off in layers.
[00:12:41] It doesn't just see people think like serving God, he's some type of genie.
[00:12:45] We can rub the genie bottle.
[00:12:47] Then boom, we have everything we want and we have everything.
[00:12:51] Yes.
[00:12:51] Yes.
[00:12:51] But it's a process to get to where he's trying to take you.
[00:12:56] So it's a daily of, of crucifying your flesh.
[00:12:59] It's a daily thing.
[00:13:01] It is daily.
[00:13:02] So I believe, and this is just my personal opinion and I'm only going off of what I've
[00:13:08] experienced in my life.
[00:13:09] Um, and this might not be for everybody else, but what I believe is that we're not totally
[00:13:14] healed, delivered and totally set free.
[00:13:17] Until he comes back to get us because we're always, we're, he's always going to remove
[00:13:22] another blind spot from us and show us another area that we have to work on.
[00:13:26] If we're totally healed, deliver and set free, what we need him for.
[00:13:31] Amen.
[00:13:32] I agree.
[00:13:33] We're all, there's always something.
[00:13:34] That's why we die daily.
[00:13:35] The boss, you gotta, I die daily, but there's something that needs to be killed.
[00:13:39] There's something that we have to go with the Lord.
[00:13:42] It's always something.
[00:13:43] It's always something.
[00:13:44] And it's, and it's, and it's, and it's, and I find it very, um, unique because it keeps
[00:13:50] us before the father.
[00:13:52] It keeps us seeking him.
[00:13:54] It keeps us, um, it takes us to another level when it comes to understanding his love and
[00:13:59] his grace and his mercy and who he really is and how he really shapes and molds us and
[00:14:04] how he takes his time and how through each trial and tribulation, it builds character in
[00:14:09] us.
[00:14:10] It changes us.
[00:14:11] It removes more shackles from our feet, more blinders from off our eyes and allow us to see
[00:14:16] different things in ourselves, see different things in him and see different things in mankind.
[00:14:21] It's a beautiful journey.
[00:14:23] I encourage everyone to, to, to build a relationship with God.
[00:14:28] See, and you know, this is why I fell in love with you because I was like, this is the way
[00:14:32] you're talking right now.
[00:14:33] This is what I receive from you.
[00:14:34] And as I follow you and watch you is that's always encouraging.
[00:14:37] It's always, uh, poetic.
[00:14:40] It's always a love story.
[00:14:42] You know, I, I, I hear a true love story and that's when, you know, you have built your
[00:14:47] relationship or in prayer because I'm in a place in a space where I can commune with God
[00:14:53] so I can feel the love from the love affair that you have built with your relationship with
[00:14:58] the Holy spirit.
[00:14:59] And that is what we all desire to have a place, a secret place that we can dwell in
[00:15:04] to dwell in the secret place of the most high under the shadow of the almighty.
[00:15:08] And I, I, I feel that, you know, when someone's been burning at an altar and been praying and
[00:15:14] fasting.
[00:15:14] So I want to talk about that a little bit more because you said you had your transformation.
[00:15:18] You were cut your hair, hair off you in the streets and you went to jail.
[00:15:22] I, I, we didn't slip over why you went to jail, but we don't have to go there.
[00:15:25] Cause you have to share it all.
[00:15:26] You don't got to tell it all.
[00:15:28] And, and then, you know, you said that you even got, you know, had, had an abusive relationship
[00:15:32] and you got, went through all of this and here you are now during your transformation and
[00:15:37] you're on the other side.
[00:15:39] So let's talk about what you're, uh, what the Lord has you doing now as you're still continuing
[00:15:45] along this journey, cause it's a journey.
[00:15:46] So you're doing some amazing things right now as you're on your journey of healing and
[00:15:53] deliverance.
[00:15:54] So right now, um, I record gospel music, so I do something called melodic rap.
[00:15:59] So, um, like, like I was telling you before we got on, I got over 3000 songs right now.
[00:16:05] So I just released my first gospel album in January of this year.
[00:16:12] So, um, I have so many songs.
[00:16:14] Um, I'm just trying to work on just following God's lead and him lighting my path on what
[00:16:20] to do with the album that I already have released.
[00:16:24] So pretty soon I'll be releasing by the end of this year, I'll be releasing a new video.
[00:16:29] Um, and I'm going to be running around promo and with that, um, um, planning a free concert
[00:16:35] cause I want to do a free concert.
[00:16:37] Uh, my thing is I don't, and this is just my strong conviction and I don't hold anybody
[00:16:43] else to this standard, but it's just my strong conviction.
[00:16:46] I don't believe in receiving money for preaching a word, teaching a word or singing praises to
[00:16:51] the Lord.
[00:16:52] So that's why I want my concert to be free because I'm like, I don't want to charge nobody
[00:16:57] to come worship God with me.
[00:16:59] I want them to just come and worship.
[00:17:01] And it's just all about our worship and offering sacrifice up to the Lord.
[00:17:04] So I'm planning a free concert where I just want everybody to come out and we're just
[00:17:10] going to worship together.
[00:17:11] We're going to eat together and we're going to fellowship and we're going to go home.
[00:17:14] Would that be in your community?
[00:17:17] Yes.
[00:17:18] In Wilmington.
[00:17:18] Okay.
[00:17:19] Yes.
[00:17:19] In Wilmington.
[00:17:20] Yep.
[00:17:21] Amen.
[00:17:21] Make sure you let me know so I can be a part and help out any way I can.
[00:17:24] I got you.
[00:17:25] Amen.
[00:17:25] Amen.
[00:17:26] So I want to talk about, uh, we have some time.
[00:17:29] And tell us what you would say if you can go back to, uh, the places that you've been
[00:17:35] and the people that, that you have.
[00:17:36] And I'm sure you probably have because my life, our life size and much isn't too different.
[00:17:41] And I'll share my testimony later.
[00:17:43] And the, what is the message?
[00:17:47] How, how do you, uh, I'm trying to find the right words.
[00:17:50] I want to say, what would you say to your younger self?
[00:17:53] Like, how do you go back and address, you know, people who see you today that you used to
[00:17:57] see and that you used to hang around with.
[00:17:59] If you, if you're in the same community or same places and spaces.
[00:18:04] I wouldn't say it.
[00:18:05] I wouldn't say it.
[00:18:06] You mean like, what would I say to my younger self?
[00:18:09] Like, do you minister to the people that you used to hang out with and see?
[00:18:14] When they see me, it's over.
[00:18:16] I don't have to say nothing when they see me.
[00:18:18] Okay.
[00:18:19] It's like, cause I, I think like people who don't know me from when I was gutter.
[00:18:24] Cause that's what they call me when I was gutter.
[00:18:26] And now they don't understand how hard I was.
[00:18:30] You could not tell I was a girl.
[00:18:32] Nothing about me said girl.
[00:18:34] Now I've seen the pictures.
[00:18:35] I was super hard.
[00:18:37] You couldn't tell I was a girl.
[00:18:39] So when I see people, when I go back to the places that I used to hang or I see people I
[00:18:44] used to hang with, they don't even recognize me.
[00:18:46] They don't even know it's me.
[00:18:47] I have to stop them and tell them it's me.
[00:18:50] I done seen the hardest gangsters of the gangsters cry when they see my face.
[00:18:55] Break down crying.
[00:18:56] Like, Oh my God, God is real.
[00:18:58] God is real.
[00:18:58] I can't believe it.
[00:18:59] I can't believe it.
[00:19:00] So it's like, I pretty much don't have to say anything.
[00:19:05] Amen.
[00:19:05] It's like when, go ahead.
[00:19:08] And that's kind of what I mean.
[00:19:09] So because it is such a transformation and the anointing speaks for itself, you know,
[00:19:15] it speaks for itself.
[00:19:15] And I know that you you're ministering and you're sharing your music.
[00:19:18] So when you're in these places and spaces and you answered the question, actually, you
[00:19:22] said that they break down crying and immediately they're like, you know, God is real.
[00:19:26] And they feel they can feel the anointing that's flowing off of you.
[00:19:31] Are you ministering right now?
[00:19:32] Are you preaching right now?
[00:19:33] No, I'm actually in training to be government.
[00:19:36] Okay.
[00:19:36] Right now.
[00:19:37] Yeah.
[00:19:37] Okay.
[00:19:38] Okay.
[00:19:38] Okay.
[00:19:38] All right.
[00:19:39] So even with that, how did you, when it was time to answer that call, you know, and say,
[00:19:45] listen, okay, Lord, I'm ready to do this work.
[00:19:47] So talk about that transformation.
[00:19:49] Cause that's, that's, that's a big deal.
[00:19:51] Markita Quinn been running her whole life.
[00:19:55] I've been running, like I said, I grew up in a church.
[00:19:57] So it's my, I've, it's been words and I've been prophesied all throughout my life.
[00:20:02] Even when I was in prison, I would have people prophesied to me in prison that was coming,
[00:20:07] I've been knew who God said I was and what I was going to do.
[00:20:11] I just didn't want to do it.
[00:20:13] So now I'm, I'm straight to the point that God, the way he loves me, it's nothing that
[00:20:21] I wouldn't do to please him.
[00:20:23] Like I literally, my life literally belongs to him.
[00:20:29] Amen.
[00:20:30] It literally, but anything that he wants me to do anywhere, he wants me to go, anything
[00:20:34] he asked me to do.
[00:20:35] Now I don't follow all the time.
[00:20:37] Cause you know, God can tell us to do some stuff.
[00:20:39] And we're like, God, that don't make no sense.
[00:20:40] Why would I do that?
[00:20:41] So sometimes it takes me a while, but I always end up doing what he asks me to do.
[00:20:46] It's a full surrender.
[00:20:48] And I always say people who come from a certain lifestyle, cause I came from the streets too.
[00:20:53] I'm not sure you read my testimony and you can go watch it.
[00:20:55] I share it with you.
[00:20:56] You know, I came from the streets to selling drugs, party and, you know, jail, all of that.
[00:21:01] Pretty much same story and total transformation.
[00:21:05] Um, but when I say yes, my yes was so serious cause I knew God was real.
[00:21:11] My yes was so serious because I knew that he had brought me through situations that I should
[00:21:18] have never made it out.
[00:21:19] So I knew I couldn't play like who wants to fall in the hands of a living God.
[00:21:24] So, you know, and I, and I know that when I talk to people, even my sisters, they're
[00:21:28] like, you know, you just got, you're so radical.
[00:21:30] You know, they think I'm gonna walk around my prayer show all day long praying, which some
[00:21:34] days I am, but God's been so good to me.
[00:21:37] If he tells me to go, I got to go.
[00:21:40] I got to go.
[00:21:41] I don't have my life.
[00:21:43] Everything.
[00:21:44] I owe him my life.
[00:21:46] I owe him my life.
[00:21:47] Whatever he want me to do.
[00:21:49] I'm just, I'm willing to do it.
[00:21:51] I'm willing to do it.
[00:21:52] Like I owe him.
[00:21:53] Like I literally, my life literally has no meaning without him.
[00:21:58] No meaning.
[00:21:59] No meaning.
[00:22:02] So let's talk about situations.
[00:22:04] Let's, let's go a little deeper.
[00:22:06] Let's go.
[00:22:06] I'm all, I'm all, I'm always, I, I gauged my, my, my, uh, my guests.
[00:22:11] Cause I don't want to go too, too far and too deep, but let's go, let's go deeper to some
[00:22:15] of those situations and places that, you know, God has brought you through when you first
[00:22:20] experienced the, the, um, the, um, the encounter with the Lord.
[00:22:24] You mean like, uh, when I had my first encounter with the Lord, like what kind of encounter there?
[00:22:30] Cause I, it's so many.
[00:22:32] Okay.
[00:22:33] So when I first, I remember when I first got arrested, uh, attempted murder charge.
[00:22:38] And as I'm sitting in jail, my first night there is when I received the Holy spirit.
[00:22:43] That was my first true encounter where I knew, you know, I felt the power of God fall upon
[00:22:49] me.
[00:22:50] Now, did I get out and do right?
[00:22:51] No, you know, but I knew that God was real.
[00:22:54] He was no longer my mama's God.
[00:22:56] I knew him for myself.
[00:22:58] So at what point did you say, mom took me to church and I know, I knew who I was, but
[00:23:03] this is what I knew that God was real to me.
[00:23:06] This is when I found, this is when God was real to me.
[00:23:09] And this, this is, it's, it's a weird, it's, it's a weird kind of story and I don't like
[00:23:13] to tell it, but I'm going to tell it.
[00:23:15] One day I was riding in the car and I used to, the car used to be where I pray, where I'm
[00:23:23] going to pray something down.
[00:23:24] I love to pray in the spirit when I'm in the car, when I'm riding around in the car.
[00:23:29] So I'm praying in the spirit and I'm riding around in the car.
[00:23:33] Like I believe, but this one, I was like, it blew my mind.
[00:23:36] So I'm, I'm praying in the spirit.
[00:23:38] I'm riding in the car and I'm on a way to see a friend, a male friend.
[00:23:43] And, um, the Lord said, when you get there, um, just reach out your hands and touch his
[00:23:50] neck.
[00:23:50] He has a lot of problems with his neck.
[00:23:52] I want you to reach out and touch his neck when you get there.
[00:23:56] So I'm like, all right, Lord.
[00:23:57] So I came down, I sat in the parking lot of his apartment complex for a little while.
[00:24:03] I came down, settled down out of the spirit and I walked into his house.
[00:24:07] But when I got in, into his house, the Lord stopped speaking.
[00:24:11] So I never touched his neck.
[00:24:13] Um, I sat down on his couch.
[00:24:15] I was there for probably about maybe like five or 10 minutes.
[00:24:18] And then my mom called and was like, Hey, can you come pick me up from my friend's house
[00:24:21] or whatever?
[00:24:22] I said, sure.
[00:24:23] I'm on my way.
[00:24:24] So I left.
[00:24:24] I get in the car.
[00:24:26] I get out.
[00:24:26] My mom sitting on the step, talking to her friend and her friend's son is coming, walking
[00:24:30] down the street with a dog.
[00:24:32] So he greets me, we talking or whatever.
[00:24:35] And we go inside of the house and the Lord was like, it's his neck touch it.
[00:24:40] So I'm like, I can't just reach out and touch this man's neck.
[00:24:45] So I said to him first that like, make myself feel comfortable and not startle him.
[00:24:50] I said to him, I said, have you been having problems with your neck?
[00:24:54] And he grabbed his neck.
[00:24:56] But he said, you can tell I was like, I was like, no, the Lord is telling me to touch your
[00:25:03] neck and, and, and, and pray over your neck right now.
[00:25:06] So he just threw his hands up and was like, go ahead, go ahead.
[00:25:10] And he was drunk.
[00:25:12] So I put, put my hands on his neck and I prayed for him.
[00:25:15] And then when I left, his mom called me and say, he was in the floor crying saying, Marquita
[00:25:21] healed me.
[00:25:22] Marquita healed me, mom.
[00:25:23] My neck is no longer hurting.
[00:25:25] And that's when I knew God was real on a whole nother level.
[00:25:29] So God revealed himself to you and him on that day.
[00:25:33] So that the, uh, the anointing of healing out, I wanted to say something else.
[00:25:39] I was listening to your story.
[00:25:40] You said that you didn't want to share that story.
[00:25:42] Why not?
[00:25:44] I mean, because you like when, when God, I don't know, it's like, I don't know.
[00:25:50] It's just, I don't like to feel like it's about me.
[00:25:54] I don't want to come across like it's about me.
[00:25:57] I'd like to keep Christ the center of everything.
[00:26:00] And certain people, if they're not mature enough, they'd take it a different way.
[00:26:05] So I'm very careful who I tell that story to, but I felt comfortable telling it here today.
[00:26:10] And I'm glad that you did because a lot of times, especially when the Lord speaks to his people and we don't respond.
[00:26:18] Can you imagine if you did not respond, you know, and you did not listen to the voice of the Lord?
[00:26:24] We are overcoming by the words of our testimony.
[00:26:27] And this is why we're at the birthing room and why I have the vision of this is to hear stories like that.
[00:26:32] So someone else can be encouraged that when you hear God speak, it could be life or death.
[00:26:39] It could be life or death.
[00:26:41] Amen.
[00:26:42] And God was showing you your gifts and who you are.
[00:26:44] This is what I called you to do.
[00:26:46] I put healing in your hands.
[00:26:47] Amen.
[00:26:48] Amen.
[00:26:49] And that's not about you.
[00:26:50] That's about, listen, God, if you didn't flow through me, how would I have been able to operate under your authority?
[00:26:57] Amen.
[00:26:58] Amen.
[00:26:58] Well, give us some more.
[00:27:00] Give us some more stories you don't want to tell.
[00:27:05] Give us some more stories you don't want to tell.
[00:27:07] Because I mean, you got some more encounters with God.
[00:27:10] Because on this journey.
[00:27:12] Yeah.
[00:27:12] My most recent encounter with God.
[00:27:15] And I'll share it.
[00:27:17] I've shared it with a couple of people, but I'll share it here today.
[00:27:20] So this probably was maybe like a month ago.
[00:27:24] I'm minding my business.
[00:27:26] I'm sitting down.
[00:27:28] And God tells me to sit very still because he has to speak to me about something.
[00:27:34] And I said, okay, I'm sitting still.
[00:27:36] And he says a man's first and last name to me.
[00:27:40] And tells me to search it on Facebook.
[00:27:45] I searched it.
[00:27:47] I found the man's page.
[00:27:49] And I looked at the man's picture.
[00:27:51] And he said, this is your husband.
[00:27:53] Right?
[00:27:54] And I went on.
[00:27:56] Mind my business.
[00:27:57] An hour later, that man was in my inbox.
[00:27:59] And I never met that man a day in my life.
[00:28:03] Oh.
[00:28:04] Do we have a wedding dress yet?
[00:28:10] It's still early.
[00:28:13] I believe it.
[00:28:14] Let me tell you something.
[00:28:16] I believe it because I knew my husband was my husband when I met him.
[00:28:20] I met him in the elevator.
[00:28:22] And he had all that ishimiyaki.
[00:28:24] You ever smelled it?
[00:28:25] Because it smelled good.
[00:28:26] Yeah.
[00:28:27] It smelled good.
[00:28:28] It smelled good.
[00:28:29] And, you know, he's a cop, canine.
[00:28:32] And so he was smelling good.
[00:28:33] Like, he got a dog and he smelled good.
[00:28:34] But the moment I saw him, I saw him in my future.
[00:28:38] So I believe that.
[00:28:39] And I also believe when you said that the Lord gives you names.
[00:28:44] Because the Lord gave me a name to look up to.
[00:28:46] Then he told me to pray for somebody.
[00:28:47] You know, speak to the prophet.
[00:28:51] That's good.
[00:28:52] So just let me know when I should get my dress for the wedding.
[00:28:55] Have you been praying with your husband?
[00:29:00] That's a whole other thing in itself.
[00:29:02] Because I've never even imagined myself with a man.
[00:29:05] You got to think.
[00:29:06] I slept with women for almost 20 years of my life.
[00:29:09] So are you attracted to men?
[00:29:12] Now, yes.
[00:29:13] That's even a whole other thing in itself.
[00:29:16] Now, yes.
[00:29:18] I've never was, though.
[00:29:19] Like, growing up, it was like I had, like, a little middle school boyfriend.
[00:29:23] But it was something I was, at that time, forcing myself to do.
[00:29:28] Because growing up in church, you know that it had to be women and men.
[00:29:31] But I always knew I was attracted to girls.
[00:29:33] So I was like, let me just try this.
[00:29:35] But the funny thing is, my middle school boyfriend always told me I was gay.
[00:29:41] He was like, you don't like me.
[00:29:42] Because I would catch him with other girls.
[00:29:44] I wouldn't care.
[00:29:45] I wouldn't cry.
[00:29:45] I'd just be like, call me later.
[00:29:47] I'll see you later.
[00:29:48] I didn't care about nothing.
[00:29:49] So it was like, he knew.
[00:29:51] Like, he knew.
[00:29:52] He was like, it's no way that you like me.
[00:29:54] You don't care for me.
[00:29:56] I think you like girls.
[00:29:57] So I tried it young.
[00:29:59] But I think being attracted to men just recently happened to me probably last year.
[00:30:07] Okay.
[00:30:09] So that has to be different, especially at 37 years old and your whole life, you know.
[00:30:15] But the Lord is a redeemer of the time.
[00:30:19] Some things that you've done in your past, it'll be so far from you as if it never happened when the Lord heals and he lifts us and he takes things away.
[00:30:28] And sometimes God doesn't remove everything.
[00:30:31] Some things just a thorn in our flesh so we can continue to pray for our healing.
[00:30:36] So it's saying that, was that desire removed from you immediately?
[00:30:39] Or was that something that you had to go wrestle with?
[00:30:42] And I'm asking you that for people who are going through it, who are saying.
[00:30:46] That desire was not removed from me immediately.
[00:30:50] It was something that I had to wrestle with.
[00:30:52] Like when I say it happened in layers, it happened in layers.
[00:30:55] Like certain things.
[00:30:57] Like I think like strip clubs was my thing.
[00:31:00] For example, strip clubs was my thing.
[00:31:02] I went to strip clubs every night.
[00:31:03] I would travel to different states just to go to a certain strip club.
[00:31:07] That was my thing.
[00:31:08] I dated a stripper for a very long time.
[00:31:10] My longtime girlfriend was a stripper.
[00:31:12] And she would do like pole contests and stuff.
[00:31:15] And I would fly all over the country with her while she compete in these poles.
[00:31:19] She was real, real crazy on the pole.
[00:31:21] So strip clubs was my thing.
[00:31:23] I noticed when God first started delivering me, this is before I started dressing feminine or anything.
[00:31:29] I couldn't stomach a strip club.
[00:31:31] It would literally make me sick.
[00:31:34] It would literally make me sick.
[00:31:36] He would take it from you.
[00:31:38] Yeah, he took that from me first.
[00:31:40] So that's when I knew something was going on.
[00:31:43] When that happened to me, I knew something was going on.
[00:31:45] I knew God was changing me.
[00:31:46] And then when I couldn't understand the smell of promethazine or the taste of it, or I didn't want to sip it when other people were sipping it.
[00:31:55] That's when I started noticing that God was delivering me.
[00:31:59] It was those first two things.
[00:32:00] Because those were two things that I did every single day.
[00:32:04] Now, I'm old.
[00:32:05] So let me ask.
[00:32:06] What is promethazine?
[00:32:09] Promethazine is called medicine.
[00:32:11] It's called medicine.
[00:32:12] It's called medicine, but we get high off of it.
[00:32:15] Some people call it lean.
[00:32:16] Some people call it syrup.
[00:32:17] Some people call it sip.
[00:32:18] It's double cup.
[00:32:19] I heard those names.
[00:32:22] I heard lean before.
[00:32:24] Mm-hmm.
[00:32:24] You ever see people say my double cup and all that?
[00:32:27] No.
[00:32:29] Mm-hmm.
[00:32:31] I'm a little older.
[00:32:32] I'm a little older.
[00:32:32] They call it syrup.
[00:32:33] They call it syrup.
[00:32:34] When I was younger, I think I heard it in the songs.
[00:32:36] It was sipping the syrup.
[00:32:37] Okay.
[00:32:38] Yeah, sipping on some scissors.
[00:32:39] Okay.
[00:32:40] Yes.
[00:32:40] Okay.
[00:32:41] Yeah.
[00:32:41] You didn't even know the song.
[00:32:42] Yeah.
[00:32:44] And I ask you that question because a lot of times, especially the older generation,
[00:32:52] young people or people in general, when they come into church, they come in, you know,
[00:32:58] say you're saved and then all of a sudden the transformation happens overnight.
[00:33:03] And there is a process for the transformation.
[00:33:05] And those desires don't leave you immediately.
[00:33:09] You know, sometimes you struggle.
[00:33:10] I used to be an alcoholic.
[00:33:12] I used to drink.
[00:33:14] And I was talking to a friend and I told her, I said, you know, every day I struggle with
[00:33:19] that.
[00:33:19] I mean, I don't anymore, but I did.
[00:33:21] You know, for years I did, even after I gave my yes, but I made a commitment and I had a
[00:33:27] covenant with the Lord that I would never do.
[00:33:28] I would never drink again.
[00:33:29] And I stuck to that covenant.
[00:33:31] And one day I woke up and it was gone.
[00:33:33] I was like, I don't have a desire for that any longer.
[00:33:35] You know, the Lord totally healed me, but it was a process.
[00:33:37] You know, and I think for three years and still fornicating with women.
[00:33:44] Like it was, it was a process.
[00:33:46] It was hard.
[00:33:48] That was like one of the hardest things that I had to like stop.
[00:33:54] It was very hard.
[00:33:56] It was very, very hard.
[00:33:58] And that's real.
[00:34:01] And that's real.
[00:34:02] So here we are today and the transformation is totally healed.
[00:34:08] You here, you are a beautiful example to young people, women and men going through transformations
[00:34:18] and through healing journeys and delivering journeys and finding out who they are truly
[00:34:25] in the Lord and giving their yes and working.
[00:34:27] So the church that you're at now, I know you're saying your mom, your mom's church.
[00:34:31] How are they?
[00:34:33] So let's talk about the church.
[00:34:35] How is the church embracing you?
[00:34:38] They love it.
[00:34:39] Like my mom had a book sign in the day.
[00:34:41] Half of them was in tears.
[00:34:43] They'd be crying when they see me.
[00:34:45] Like people literally cry when they see me and they say, oh, can I get a picture?
[00:34:49] You look so beautiful.
[00:34:51] It's, it's, it's crazy.
[00:34:53] And not only everyone did she change her life and change from dressing like a young man, a
[00:35:00] boy to a girl.
[00:35:02] I mean, she's, she's now in total modesty, total modesty where, you know, I mean like
[00:35:08] old school modesty dresses long.
[00:35:10] Yes.
[00:35:10] Yes.
[00:35:11] You know, head covered all the time for those that cannot see and are just listeners, you
[00:35:17] know, and, um, I just love it.
[00:35:20] And you're always sharp.
[00:35:22] It's always good.
[00:35:22] Now you do have your clothes made.
[00:35:24] Yes, I do.
[00:35:25] You do.
[00:35:26] Oh, I need to get your Taylor's number because we had this one little number on.
[00:35:29] It was real cute.
[00:35:30] I think I told you that.
[00:35:31] Did I tell you that?
[00:35:31] The orange one.
[00:35:32] The orange one.
[00:35:33] Yes.
[00:35:33] It was so cute.
[00:35:35] It was cute.
[00:35:36] Cute.
[00:35:36] You can put a little scarf and some boots on.
[00:35:38] Okay.
[00:35:39] So yes, the outfits are fly and I love it.
[00:35:43] I see a new trend.
[00:35:44] And not only that, your music and we're going to play a little clip of her music.
[00:35:49] Let me see how much time we have.
[00:35:50] We have a little time.
[00:35:51] We play it at the end.
[00:35:51] We'll go out to her music.
[00:35:53] So as we're leaving, um, if you all have questions, definitely put your questions in the comments.
[00:35:57] So when she goes back and watches, she can answer any questions you may have.
[00:36:02] If you have children or friends or anyone else that's on this journey or that you've been praying for, um, and that you've been fasting for, because I know your mother was praying to fasting for you.
[00:36:12] You know, and I know she's been crying when they rip her hair out and everything else.
[00:36:16] I took my mom through hell from the ages of 12 to 22.
[00:36:22] I constantly went back and forth to prison.
[00:36:24] And I got kicked out of every school I ever went to about time.
[00:36:28] I turned 16.
[00:36:29] They just put me out and said, I can't, I couldn't return.
[00:36:33] They was like, you 16.
[00:36:34] Now you don't have to go to school.
[00:36:36] Like I put my mom through the worst.
[00:36:39] Is that because of the struggle you were having internally or was that just, I was having a lot of struggles internally.
[00:36:45] Like also at the age of 17, I was diagnosed with bipolar schizophrenia in general and anxiety.
[00:36:52] I also had very severe mental health issues.
[00:36:58] Um, I take medication.
[00:37:00] So this is what I have to do to be mentally sane and my doctors and my therapists and stuff.
[00:37:07] They, they believe I'm like their miracle baby because I'm not supposed to be.
[00:37:15] Being able to function a way that I function with how bad my diagnosis is.
[00:37:21] Right.
[00:37:21] So literally just for me to keep a sane mind, I have to take a pill every day.
[00:37:28] I have to go to therapy once a week.
[00:37:32] I have to work out and stay active, stay fit.
[00:37:36] I have to watch what I eat.
[00:37:38] I can't eat certain things.
[00:37:40] I have to, um, I have to get a proper amount of rest.
[00:37:45] Like I, I rest, uh, more than the average person.
[00:37:48] I need like 12 hours of sleep where anyone, anybody else can do like eight.
[00:37:52] I need like 12.
[00:37:53] So I have to stay on top of all of those things and really be disciplined just to, to function.
[00:38:00] Like I hate to say normal, but that's what it is to function like a normal human being.
[00:38:04] I have to stay on all top of those things just to function.
[00:38:09] And of course, praying and fasting in my relationship with God, all of those things I have to stay on top of just to function like a normal human being.
[00:38:17] And I'm praying.
[00:38:19] Cause I believe in taking your medicine and waiting on your total deliverance.
[00:38:25] I do.
[00:38:26] Actually, I have a book I wrote.
[00:38:28] Uh, it's not up there.
[00:38:29] It's called fight for your life.
[00:38:30] Um, it's called fight for your life in dealing with mental illness and depression, which is one of my testimonies.
[00:38:37] Also, this is by the Lord.
[00:38:38] It had me, uh, I loved you so much.
[00:38:41] And, uh, one of the things that I talk about in my book is about taking my medication and being able to get the proper rest.
[00:38:48] And, um, at the same age as you, I was diagnosed with all those same things.
[00:38:54] But as I begin to write this book and I begin to go on my healing journey and I needed all of those things, the Lord, the Holy Spirit.
[00:39:04] When he, when, when, when he, when he, when he finishes, cause he's going to finish the work that he has begun.
[00:39:09] He has begun a good work show completed.
[00:39:12] When he completed it, I took my medication until I no longer needed my medication.
[00:39:17] And I think it's important that you said that because a lot of times, and we're even going into mental health months.
[00:39:22] So this is a perfect segment.
[00:39:23] And first, uh, mental health month, the, the people, some people believe that you, once you get saved, that you shouldn't have to do all of this stuff because the Lord's a healer.
[00:39:33] And he is, but taking medication and pray until the Lord completes the work that he has begun.
[00:39:40] Um, and I think that's wisdom and I think that I'm glad that you shared that because a lot of times we don't want to talk about mental illness.
[00:39:47] We don't want to talk about those things that, that we go through in church, uh, while we are still going through a process.
[00:39:54] Cause it is a process, but glory be to God who causes us to triumph.
[00:39:58] Whenever I go and do, uh, interviews, I dump my bag of medication now.
[00:40:02] Cause there's about 30 of them in there.
[00:40:03] I no longer have to take it.
[00:40:05] Yeah.
[00:40:06] You know, Lord, I have you on so many.
[00:40:08] Yeah.
[00:40:09] I don't longer have to take any medication and, and, and, and the, the Lord has, has shown me.
[00:40:14] Yeah.
[00:40:14] It's encouraging.
[00:40:15] I'm telling, I'm telling you today because you shared that, that you're not going when God completes the work as you continue to go on, as God continues to take you on this journey.
[00:40:26] Cause the race wasn't given to the swift or the battle to the strong, but he that endorph until the end.
[00:40:31] So as you endure like a good soldier, I'm telling you on the other side,
[00:40:36] but I'm glad that you said it because somebody needs to be encouraged that while you are on your journey, it's okay to take your pill.
[00:40:45] Please take your pill.
[00:40:46] Please take your medication.
[00:40:48] Cause I want y'all to be able to hear what the Lord is saying.
[00:40:51] Cause when we're going through these things and as the Lord is continuing to pull down a stronghold and we're praying and we're fasting for our total deliverance,
[00:40:59] we need to be able to function.
[00:41:04] And thank you for being transparent.
[00:41:05] I love that.
[00:41:08] I do.
[00:41:09] Cause somebody needs to hear that.
[00:41:11] Cause a lot of times people have to hide that they have to hide as they are going,
[00:41:15] you know,
[00:41:17] through a process,
[00:41:18] but I'm not ashamed anymore.
[00:41:19] I was ashamed like my whole life really.
[00:41:23] Yeah.
[00:41:24] And you shouldn't be.
[00:41:25] Cause if you knew how many people was taking,
[00:41:27] you knew how many people had to take a pill.
[00:41:28] They got up in the morning,
[00:41:30] go to the bathroom,
[00:41:31] a pot one,
[00:41:32] you know,
[00:41:33] and it's,
[00:41:33] it's,
[00:41:34] yeah,
[00:41:34] you know,
[00:41:35] it is,
[00:41:35] we have to do what we need to do to make sure that we can take care of ourselves.
[00:41:39] Amen.
[00:41:41] Um,
[00:41:41] so we're about to,
[00:41:44] we have,
[00:41:44] we have a little bit more time.
[00:41:47] So what would you tell,
[00:41:48] and I always ask this question cause I love to answer myself a little Markita.
[00:41:53] If you can talk to her,
[00:41:57] what would you say to her now?
[00:42:01] Um,
[00:42:02] I don't think,
[00:42:03] I don't think I would tell,
[00:42:05] I wouldn't tell myself to do anything different.
[00:42:07] Nothing different.
[00:42:08] But what would you,
[00:42:09] what would you say?
[00:42:09] We're encouraging words.
[00:42:11] Would you speak to her now?
[00:42:14] Could you turn out to be a beautiful woman?
[00:42:16] God got you.
[00:42:17] God got you.
[00:42:19] That's it.
[00:42:19] You're not alone.
[00:42:20] We made it.
[00:42:23] Yeah.
[00:42:24] Yeah.
[00:42:25] We made it right.
[00:42:26] Rumble,
[00:42:26] young girl,
[00:42:27] we made it.
[00:42:28] It's going to be okay.
[00:42:29] It's going to be okay.
[00:42:31] Yes.
[00:42:31] We put my end door for a night,
[00:42:32] but joy is definitely going to come in the morning.
[00:42:35] Amen.
[00:42:35] Amen.
[00:42:36] Anything else you want to share with our listeners?
[00:42:39] Do you think that is important for people to know about you,
[00:42:42] about your journey,
[00:42:43] what you have coming out,
[00:42:44] what you're doing?
[00:42:45] I think that is very important that we get to know God for ourselves.
[00:42:52] It's all cool to go to church and it's good if you go to church on Sunday,
[00:42:57] but if you don't have that personal relationship with God,
[00:43:00] I don't want to say you wasting your time,
[00:43:02] but you missing out.
[00:43:05] Build that personal relationship with God and don't,
[00:43:08] don't compare your walk to anyone else.
[00:43:11] Everyone's walk is different.
[00:43:13] Everyone's process is different.
[00:43:15] Your process may not be like the way it started for me.
[00:43:18] It may be something different,
[00:43:21] but try to keep your mind on God because he promised to give us perfect peace.
[00:43:27] Yes.
[00:43:28] And I think that a lot of people miss out on really spending that time with God
[00:43:35] when they leave church,
[00:43:36] really spending that time in the word when they leave church,
[00:43:39] really praying and really going on your own personal fast.
[00:43:43] You shouldn't always have to fast when the church go on a fast,
[00:43:46] start building your own personal take.
[00:43:49] It could,
[00:43:50] you could start off with two minutes a day.
[00:43:52] I promise you,
[00:43:53] you could start off with two minutes,
[00:43:55] three times a week.
[00:43:55] I promise you the more you be in God's presence,
[00:43:59] when you start being in God's presence,
[00:44:01] the more you going to want more.
[00:44:03] You don't want more of it.
[00:44:04] Amen.
[00:44:05] You don't want more of it.
[00:44:07] So I just think,
[00:44:07] I just want to encourage people to,
[00:44:10] you know,
[00:44:11] build your own personal relationship with Christ.
[00:44:13] Don't get caught up with what's going on Instagram.
[00:44:16] Don't get caught up with what's going on Facebook.
[00:44:17] Most of it is fake.
[00:44:19] Don't compare your life to them people's life.
[00:44:22] Don't start thinking that you ain't where you supposed to be because you
[00:44:25] see somebody on YouTube channel and they got 50 million followers and they rich.
[00:44:30] They probably lying.
[00:44:31] They probably lying.
[00:44:32] The views probably fake.
[00:44:34] They probably bought them.
[00:44:35] You don't know.
[00:44:36] For real,
[00:44:36] you never know.
[00:44:37] You don't know.
[00:44:38] Don't get into comparing yourself to these people that you don't even know.
[00:44:44] And you don't even know if they're telling you the truth or not.
[00:44:47] Focus on God.
[00:44:49] Remember his promises and what he has promised you.
[00:44:53] And just continue to spend time with him.
[00:44:56] That's,
[00:44:56] I can't stress it enough.
[00:44:58] Spend time with God.
[00:44:59] And you'll begin to see him move in your life like never before.
[00:45:04] Amen.
[00:45:05] Amen.
[00:45:06] And last question,
[00:45:09] which I know you mentioned it yesterday on Facebook.
[00:45:12] So I have to bring it up.
[00:45:15] Markita in relationships and dating now.
[00:45:18] So.
[00:45:23] So the question is,
[00:45:24] does do Christians date?
[00:45:26] Right.
[00:45:27] What does dating look like for Christians?
[00:45:31] Oh my God.
[00:45:32] I know.
[00:45:33] For me or Christians?
[00:45:35] For you.
[00:45:36] But I'm not saying,
[00:45:37] you know,
[00:45:37] I'm using that for an example.
[00:45:40] It's very,
[00:45:41] very difficult because,
[00:45:43] and I'm going to just speak from my personal experience.
[00:45:45] It's very,
[00:45:45] very difficult because I meet saved men,
[00:45:47] but they don't believe in wait until marriage to have sex.
[00:45:50] And that's an issue for me.
[00:45:52] I saw you wrote that.
[00:45:54] That's an issue for me.
[00:45:56] Isn't that something?
[00:45:56] They don't believe in that.
[00:45:58] I'm talking about,
[00:45:59] I'm talking about,
[00:46:00] I meet whole deacons,
[00:46:01] pastors,
[00:46:01] pastors and men like that,
[00:46:03] that,
[00:46:04] that caught herself pursuing me,
[00:46:06] but they can't,
[00:46:07] they don't believe in that part.
[00:46:08] And the pressure is going to meet the word and everything,
[00:46:11] but they don't believe in that part at all.
[00:46:13] And,
[00:46:14] and just as perverted and nasty.
[00:46:16] It's crazy because I meet guys who aren't saved.
[00:46:19] And when I tell them I'm looking for marriage,
[00:46:21] they respect it more than their saved men do.
[00:46:23] They respect it.
[00:46:24] And they'll get what you get saved and live life to the fullest and be a
[00:46:29] destiny partner.
[00:46:30] So I saw you wrote that.
[00:46:32] I was like,
[00:46:32] you know,
[00:46:33] and I was like,
[00:46:34] again,
[00:46:34] so transparent,
[00:46:35] so real,
[00:46:36] you know,
[00:46:36] how do we,
[00:46:38] didn't thank God I'm married now,
[00:46:39] but when I was single,
[00:46:40] I was like,
[00:46:41] how do we date and find love or get married,
[00:46:44] you know,
[00:46:45] as Christians,
[00:46:46] let's see as young people,
[00:46:47] let's see as pretty people.
[00:46:48] Cause you know,
[00:46:49] you're beautiful as beautiful women.
[00:46:50] Like,
[00:46:51] I want to just go out and maybe get to know you.
[00:46:53] Like,
[00:46:53] do we need chaperones nowadays?
[00:46:55] Is that what we need?
[00:46:56] 2024 period.
[00:46:58] It doesn't matter if you saved or not.
[00:47:02] 2024 is the worst for dating.
[00:47:04] And I talked to my male friends.
[00:47:06] It's worse for them.
[00:47:07] I talked to my female friends.
[00:47:08] It's bad for them.
[00:47:09] Like it's so bad.
[00:47:11] And I blame social media because people see memes on social media.
[00:47:15] For real people in my generation,
[00:47:17] if a meme go viral,
[00:47:18] everybody live by it.
[00:47:19] Like it's a Bible verse.
[00:47:21] Everybody live by it.
[00:47:23] There should be a difference in separation.
[00:47:25] I just need,
[00:47:26] you know what we need?
[00:47:27] We need a,
[00:47:28] a,
[00:47:28] a,
[00:47:29] a singles conference.
[00:47:30] We need a singles conference where people can come up and talk to single
[00:47:35] people and talk about day in,
[00:47:39] in 2024 as Christians,
[00:47:42] as people who are serving the Lord,
[00:47:45] you know,
[00:47:45] what are the new,
[00:47:47] what are the expectations and how can you date safely date?
[00:47:51] for,
[00:47:51] for,
[00:47:52] for,
[00:47:52] to marriage?
[00:47:53] You know,
[00:47:54] what does that look like?
[00:47:55] I think it should be a courting process.
[00:47:58] I think it should be a courting process.
[00:48:01] It should.
[00:48:02] We need to go back to a courting.
[00:48:03] I think it should be courting.
[00:48:06] I think that's the only way that it can be properly done.
[00:48:10] And I think it should be some rules and things set in,
[00:48:14] set in the place.
[00:48:15] Do you set these rules?
[00:48:17] For the courtship.
[00:48:17] So when you go out,
[00:48:18] do you set these rules?
[00:48:19] Do you tell them?
[00:48:20] Cause I know I already can hear you now.
[00:48:22] Let them know.
[00:48:22] They be thinking,
[00:48:23] they be thinking I'm so crazy.
[00:48:25] Um,
[00:48:26] I tell them I don't get in the car with me.
[00:48:29] Yeah.
[00:48:30] You will meet me at,
[00:48:31] at the location.
[00:48:32] I don't get in the car.
[00:48:33] I don't come to your house.
[00:48:34] I don't even ask them where they live at.
[00:48:36] I don't even want to know.
[00:48:36] I don't even want to come to your house.
[00:48:40] Yeah.
[00:48:41] Ain't no touching.
[00:48:42] We got to meet in public.
[00:48:43] We not doing no,
[00:48:44] nowhere where we going to be alone.
[00:48:47] Private.
[00:48:47] Nothing.
[00:48:47] We not doing private.
[00:48:49] We have to be a public where there's many people,
[00:48:51] many people.
[00:48:53] Yeah.
[00:48:53] We got to start taking chaperones.
[00:48:55] So when you go on your next day,
[00:48:57] call me up.
[00:48:58] Let me know what day is going to be.
[00:49:00] And I'll come sit at the other table.
[00:49:03] Cause we need to,
[00:49:04] we need,
[00:49:06] listen,
[00:49:07] cause this is a mess.
[00:49:08] It's a mess.
[00:49:09] I was reading.
[00:49:10] I was like,
[00:49:10] what?
[00:49:12] I'm telling you,
[00:49:13] it's big.
[00:49:13] It's big.
[00:49:14] I haven't met,
[00:49:15] and I've met a long list of saved brothers,
[00:49:19] long from deacons,
[00:49:20] the pastors to whatever,
[00:49:22] whatever.
[00:49:23] You want to say they do in a church.
[00:49:25] I done met them all.
[00:49:26] The singers,
[00:49:26] the drummers,
[00:49:27] whoever saying that they're saved.
[00:49:28] I have met a long list of men that say,
[00:49:31] and not,
[00:49:32] I have not met one that believes in waiting until sex,
[00:49:35] waiting on marriage to have sex.
[00:49:37] And I'm talking about guys that saying they've been saved 20 and 25 years.
[00:49:43] There it is.
[00:49:44] So we're going to pray that we meet.
[00:49:46] Cause there are some,
[00:49:47] I'm telling you.
[00:49:48] I'm not saying that.
[00:49:49] For those that know,
[00:49:50] I know.
[00:49:51] So for those that are watching,
[00:49:52] that are waiting,
[00:49:54] can you please leave a comment?
[00:49:56] So we know that we can bring you to the birth room and have this conversation on how we can help and have a singles conference so that we can talk about it.
[00:50:05] We need to build a singles ministry.
[00:50:07] And that's the problem.
[00:50:08] A lot of churches don't have single ministries anymore.
[00:50:10] No,
[00:50:11] you know,
[00:50:12] we don't,
[00:50:12] we just don't have them anymore.
[00:50:13] The single ministries.
[00:50:14] I think everyone's focusing now on the,
[00:50:16] on the married,
[00:50:17] you know,
[00:50:18] marriage ministries and married couples,
[00:50:19] which is important.
[00:50:20] It really important.
[00:50:21] But we,
[00:50:22] but we need to get back to the youth ministry and the singles ministry so we can build them up and build up the confidence.
[00:50:27] Because I know some women and men think,
[00:50:31] you know,
[00:50:31] I'm getting of a certain age.
[00:50:32] I need to start,
[00:50:33] you know,
[00:50:34] you know,
[00:50:34] Lord,
[00:50:35] where's my husband?
[00:50:36] And then,
[00:50:37] you know,
[00:50:37] the man you think is your husband is not your husband.
[00:50:39] He's not presenting himself.
[00:50:41] Well,
[00:50:42] as you can see,
[00:50:43] you know,
[00:50:44] and it's just a mess,
[00:50:46] but it's a mess.
[00:50:48] Okay.
[00:50:49] So I got stories.
[00:50:51] It's a mess.
[00:50:51] I heard you taking a break.
[00:50:53] So you won't be doing any day in.
[00:50:54] So we're going to pray for your husband.
[00:50:56] And just to give you some more encouragement,
[00:51:02] I fasted for a week and pray in the Saturday.
[00:51:06] I broke my fast.
[00:51:07] My husband called me and said he wanted to get married.
[00:51:09] What?
[00:51:10] I was shocked.
[00:51:10] We weren't even dating.
[00:51:12] I was shocked.
[00:51:13] I was,
[00:51:13] I was,
[00:51:14] I was expecting God to do it,
[00:51:16] but that was a suddenly.
[00:51:19] It was shocked.
[00:51:21] I don't know.
[00:51:22] Really?
[00:51:22] Look,
[00:51:23] and it was a text message.
[00:51:25] Girl,
[00:51:25] it was a text message.
[00:51:26] He didn't even like call me like,
[00:51:28] Hey baby.
[00:51:28] I'm,
[00:51:29] you know,
[00:51:29] I would think he said,
[00:51:30] listen,
[00:51:30] last time I saw you,
[00:51:31] I saw you differently.
[00:51:33] And I think you should come home.
[00:51:34] We should,
[00:51:34] we can get married.
[00:51:35] And I,
[00:51:36] so,
[00:51:36] you know,
[00:51:36] I said,
[00:51:37] I said,
[00:51:37] Kay,
[00:51:38] and I went to sleep because I didn't know what was going on.
[00:51:40] I said,
[00:51:40] Lord,
[00:51:40] he must be screaming.
[00:51:44] You are so funny.
[00:51:46] Girl,
[00:51:47] six months later,
[00:51:48] he came and picked me up and moved me back from Florida to Delaware.
[00:51:51] We got married.
[00:51:52] It was about a year.
[00:51:54] We've been married.
[00:51:54] It'd be three years in April.
[00:51:56] I just realized I was like,
[00:51:57] Lord,
[00:51:57] I was still fresh.
[00:51:59] Yeah.
[00:52:00] I'm still shocked.
[00:52:02] I'm still shocked.
[00:52:07] And honey,
[00:52:07] he had to wait.
[00:52:08] I'm still shocked.
[00:52:10] I'm still shocked.
[00:52:10] So be encouraged.
[00:52:12] Lord,
[00:52:13] again,
[00:52:13] you are faster in a,
[00:52:14] in a prayer warrior.
[00:52:15] God's going to send you just who you are supposed to have.
[00:52:18] Cause you are a beautiful woman.
[00:52:19] As we are leaving out,
[00:52:21] I'm playing.
[00:52:22] Y'all know,
[00:52:22] I do all the,
[00:52:23] so y'all hold up.
[00:52:24] Y'all,
[00:52:24] y'all know I'm doing all the work.
[00:52:26] We want to play a little clipping of Markita's.
[00:52:30] Her song.
[00:52:31] I saw this online and it just blessed me.
[00:52:34] We'll play a little snippet.
[00:52:35] We're going to let her talk about it for the next five minutes.
[00:52:38] And then we're going to,
[00:52:40] we're going to end our show.
[00:52:42] Give me one second.
[00:52:43] Play that.
[00:52:44] If you're hustling on a fly,
[00:52:46] getting money,
[00:52:47] keep it simple for the ops,
[00:52:49] going back and forth.
[00:52:50] The court,
[00:52:51] it never stops.
[00:52:52] I'm standing in a gap for you.
[00:52:56] If you're dancing on a pole,
[00:52:58] do give you a couple dollars.
[00:53:00] You will roll.
[00:53:01] City girl,
[00:53:02] stay twerking.
[00:53:03] You won't go.
[00:53:05] I'm standing in a gap for you.
[00:53:10] That is so hot.
[00:53:12] So what she's saying is she's standing in the gap.
[00:53:15] She interceding for y'all.
[00:53:16] If you standing on a pole,
[00:53:19] twerking somewhere,
[00:53:20] getting go,
[00:53:20] I don't know the words,
[00:53:21] but I'm going to learn them so I can sing it and really be,
[00:53:23] really be a fan.
[00:53:24] But she's standing in the gap for you.
[00:53:26] And I'm an intercessor.
[00:53:28] So this song just really,
[00:53:30] really,
[00:53:30] really,
[00:53:30] really just did it for me.
[00:53:31] I thought I was a rapper again.
[00:53:33] So tell us about this song and where it came from.
[00:53:36] I wrote this song because I don't judge people that still,
[00:53:44] that's,
[00:53:45] that's,
[00:53:47] that's at where I used to be.
[00:53:48] Yes.
[00:53:49] So I don't judge them.
[00:53:51] I literally feel their pain.
[00:53:53] Um,
[00:53:54] I have like a heart full of compassion for them and I constantly stay in
[00:53:59] prayer for people who shoot people,
[00:54:01] people who sell drugs,
[00:54:03] people who in prison,
[00:54:04] people who,
[00:54:05] uh,
[00:54:06] sell their body for money,
[00:54:08] people who,
[00:54:08] who strip and all that,
[00:54:10] like the lifestyle that I was really in,
[00:54:12] like the things that I've seen and experienced and the things that I was
[00:54:15] involved with.
[00:54:16] I literally pray for them every single day.
[00:54:19] Yes.
[00:54:20] Yes.
[00:54:20] So,
[00:54:21] um,
[00:54:22] like how I write my music,
[00:54:23] I write my,
[00:54:24] like whatever's going on in my life that day,
[00:54:27] I write a song about it.
[00:54:28] So that's how I've,
[00:54:30] I've accumulated 3000 songs.
[00:54:32] Cause if something happens that day,
[00:54:34] I write a song about it.
[00:54:35] If I feel it that day,
[00:54:36] I write a song about it.
[00:54:37] If I have a conversation with somebody and I like what we were talking
[00:54:41] about,
[00:54:41] I'll find a way to make a song about it.
[00:54:44] That is so dope.
[00:54:45] I love it.
[00:54:47] I love it.
[00:54:47] Tell us how we can find you on social media.
[00:54:49] If we want to follow,
[00:54:51] we want to,
[00:54:52] uh,
[00:54:53] uh,
[00:54:54] just,
[00:54:54] my name is,
[00:54:55] uh,
[00:54:55] Markita Grayson on every platform.
[00:54:57] It's M A R K E T A Grayson.
[00:55:00] G R A Y S O N.
[00:55:02] That's on every single platform.
[00:55:04] That's on Tik TOK.
[00:55:05] That's on Instagram.
[00:55:06] That's on Facebook.
[00:55:07] I don't do Twitter or whatever it's called now.
[00:55:10] I don't have a,
[00:55:14] it's too dark,
[00:55:15] baby.
[00:55:16] It's too dark.
[00:55:18] Twitter is.
[00:55:19] Yeah.
[00:55:19] It's dark.
[00:55:20] It's dark.
[00:55:21] I've never done.
[00:55:22] I never get into it.
[00:55:24] It's too dark for me.
[00:55:25] Like it goes down.
[00:55:26] It's too much going on.
[00:55:27] It goes down.
[00:55:28] It's dark.
[00:55:29] But,
[00:55:30] um,
[00:55:31] that's how you can find me.
[00:55:32] my album is called from,
[00:55:34] from gutter to glory.
[00:55:35] It's on every streaming platform.
[00:55:37] Know the man.
[00:55:38] If you have Apple music,
[00:55:39] if you have title,
[00:55:40] if you want to listen to it on YouTube,
[00:55:43] you can listen to it on YouTube.
[00:55:45] It's on Pandora.
[00:55:46] It's on,
[00:55:47] um,
[00:55:48] it's on everything,
[00:55:49] but SoundCloud.
[00:55:50] Okay.
[00:55:52] Everything,
[00:55:52] but SoundCloud,
[00:55:53] you can find it everywhere,
[00:55:54] but SoundCloud.
[00:55:55] So everyone go ahead.
[00:55:57] Now download the album,
[00:55:58] share it,
[00:55:59] share it with your friends and your family.
[00:56:01] It's going to bless you.
[00:56:02] Just that little clip of there.
[00:56:03] Bless me.
[00:56:04] So as we leave this place,
[00:56:07] but never the Lord's presence.
[00:56:08] Uh,
[00:56:09] you want to pray us out?
[00:56:10] Markita?
[00:56:11] Yes.
[00:56:12] Lord,
[00:56:13] we come to you humbly as we may.
[00:56:15] I ask you to forgive us from all unrighteousness.
[00:56:18] Thank you for gathering us here today to share your word and to share our experiences with you.
[00:56:23] Lord,
[00:56:24] I ask that you just touch the ears,
[00:56:26] the hearts and minds of the people listening.
[00:56:28] I pray that we planted a seed tonight that bring them and draw them closer to you.
[00:56:33] So they can have a personal relationship with you,
[00:56:36] Father.
[00:56:36] Father,
[00:56:37] I just ask anyone who's standing in a need,
[00:56:39] if they don't,
[00:56:40] can't even open up their lips and ask you,
[00:56:43] Father,
[00:56:44] we know that you hear it,
[00:56:45] Father.
[00:56:45] We know that you will answer their prayers,
[00:56:48] Father,
[00:56:48] that you will answer their cries,
[00:56:49] that you hear them,
[00:56:50] Father,
[00:56:51] when they can't even speak for themselves,
[00:56:53] Father.
[00:56:53] Thank you.
[00:56:53] Thank you for everything that you have done in my life and everything that you will continue to do in my sister's life,
[00:57:00] Lord.
[00:57:00] Lord,
[00:57:01] I ask that you heal,
[00:57:02] deliver,
[00:57:03] and set free in our lives.
[00:57:04] In Jesus' name I pray.
[00:57:06] Amen.
[00:57:07] Amen.
[00:57:07] Amen.
[00:57:08] Amen.
[00:57:09] I am so blessed to know you.
[00:57:10] I'm so happy that you took this invitation and came on and share a piece of your testimony.
[00:57:18] And I want to have you back.
[00:57:20] We're going to have you back on the birthday room to talk more about your music and some projects that you have coming on.
[00:57:25] As soon as you are about to have your concert,
[00:57:27] definitely come back so we can talk about it.
[00:57:29] And make sure that everyone can come out and join.
[00:57:31] Yes.
[00:57:32] Thank you.
[00:57:33] Yes.
[00:57:33] Thank you.
[00:57:34] Thank you.
[00:57:35] So until next time,
[00:57:36] everybody,
[00:57:37] again,
[00:57:37] we are streaming on all platforms.
[00:57:39] Make sure you like us on YouTube.
[00:57:41] Continue to like us,
[00:57:42] like us,
[00:57:43] because that helps me to be able to give out more content.
[00:57:47] I need to get my YouTube numbers up.
[00:57:49] So go ahead and like me on YouTube.
[00:57:51] Yes.
[00:57:51] I will share.
[00:57:52] Yes.
[00:57:52] Make sure you share.
[00:57:53] So everyone have a blessed evening until we see you again.
[00:57:57] Good night.
[00:57:57] Good night.
[00:58:14] Good night.
[00:58:18] Good night.
[00:58:20] Good night.
[00:58:20] Good night.
[00:58:20] Good night.
[00:58:21] Good night.
[00:58:21] Good night.